14048.) As much as i wanna believe that things are gonna change between us i know there not. no matter how much i cry, talk or even think about you. its still not going to replace all the pain in my heart.

i mean everyday i see you looking at me and i wonder why? why does he have to put me through all this pain. i wanna believe that me and you will actually have a chance together. but i know its nver going to happen, but i wanna know if we can still be friends but you wont let me get that opportunity. i mean we used to be such great friends but now its like we’re complete strangers, and i don’t want that to happen through out the school, i want to yo to be my best friend forever., but seems like you don’t even care to give a try. you put in a really confusing situation. and right now i’m going to through a lot, and your the only one who understands me but we’re not even talking. i don’t know if this is the end of our friendship i’m hoping  its not, but than again hope doesn’t always work. i just want you to understand what i’m going through.

this perfectly fits me right now. i used to be close with my best friend erich and over the summer i told him i was pregnant with my ex bf’s baby who he completely hates. so were barely talking now. i dont know why this is because if we were just friends it shouldnt matter. this makes me think he wants to be something more but hes got a gf so i dont know what to think of the situation. he knows im not with the babys dad so it shouldnt matter. i miss him so much. we used to be together everyday until we drifted apart. he used to know everything about me and he was the one person i could tell everything too and i was the one person he could tell everything too. i guess i just miss him and i have faith we will be friends again because we still do talk every now and then and i know he cares for me like i care for him. </3

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